March 10, 2008

CH-CH-CH-CH-CHANGES...

My husband started a new job today. It got me thinking about change. It's a strange thing, change. The dictionary has several definitions, but they all mean the same thing: something in your life, something you are used to is about to be completely different. Many people love change. They think of it as an opportunity to explore new horizons, learn new things, blah, blah, blah. I, on the other hand, am scared to death of change. The idea of things I'm comfortable with suddenly being different freaks me the hell out! SERIOUSLY! Even normal life changes like a new job or starting a family make me a nervous wreck...
So how does someone who is afraid of change handle change? If you're me, you become a control freak! I try to control every detail of my life and my family's lives. From the smallest details to the biggest catastrophes, I try to micro-manage everything. As I'm typing this, I'm thinking "Good Lord, that's ridiculous - you can't control everything." Of course, not being a control freak would mean, guess what - CHANGING part of my personality. Vicious cycle...So there you have it - a little insight into my mind, if you dare!